It's so hard to say goodbye....well, to everything.
April 16, 2019
I know it's been so long, I've been slacking. Not really, I found a job working as a cashier. Some days it's fine and other days it's hard, any job working with the public is that way. And then last month my sweet fur baby passed. I am still devastated. I miss her every day.
And with that I kind of lost purpose. I started this blog for a class, and I stuck with it because it's my voice. But I feel lately that I've lost that voice. Even in the book world, I feel like I don't belong.
I don't have friends and it gets lonely sometimes. I went to a book event recently and I still felt out of place. I'm getting ready to publish a book and I don't even think I'm liked in that group. And this could be because I think it, meaning it's all in my head. I don't know.
I know that there are others out there that feel this way. I started going back on the dating sites, that should be fun for a while.
I also want to move but people in my own family point out that I won't ever make it on my own, and that makes me mad. So, I should do what makes me sad then be happy. I'm not happy, and haven't been for awhile.
The biggest thing is that you know you're not alone. I know deep down that someone out their cares.